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dear internet,

about a week ago my roomate brought home beer and some jack daniels whiskey, my fiance and i decided to drink with him, we started out drinking the beers then we started taking shots, i have never drank whiskey before so after the second shot i was sluring in my speach, i had 3 shots plus a glass of jack daniels mixed with monster , then i drank 5 beers, i could hardley walk a straight line, my fiance was pretty drunk also along with my roomate, well somehow all three of us endded up in bed together, i hate that that happend, but we were all drunk...after that we got dressed and went back up front, my fiance passed out in the recliner and i sat down in the chair i dont know why but i started to play with my self, honestly i dont know why i did that, my roomate sat on the couch, i wasnt fully dressed my pants were still off, i was drinking my 6th bear, and not really caring, what happend next s why i asked this question of was i raped, i heard my roomate say he wanted to go a second round, but i was kinda out of it, i remember closing my eyes and he was on the couch, i thought he was joking cause he was just sittin there with his eyes closed, so i closed my eyes ready to sleep, i woke up to him sticking it in me, i didnt know what to do cause i couldnt speek i was so drunk and out of it, i looked over at my fiance and he was sacked out snoring,,,,,,,,,,i just sat there cause i didnt know what to do, he pulled down my shirt and started to mess with my boobs, he kept having sex with me, till he got his then he got up and walked away.....i went to the room and shut the door and went to sleep, i woke up the next day felling like crap, i was confused and fealt guilty, was it my fault did i provoke it? was i raped, or was i asking for it.......i havent told anyone....i dont know what to do, i stay ayaw from my room mate and wont look at him, i cant....please help...